even death may die

One thing you should know about me is i'm addicted to google reader. i have hundreds of feeds and read most of them. today, i was reading the how-stuff-works page on the necronomicon. so the necronomicon is an invention of h.p. lovecraft in case you didn't know. it's sort of a dark spell book. well lovecraft has an immense cult following and there are many published books entitled necronomicon. i, in fact, own a copy of the version by simon, which doesn't really stay true to the lovecraft stories, i've heard. this particular version is made up of various occult rituals and sumerian mythology. i haven't read the whole thing, but it's different. if you've ever read the satanic bible or anything, it's kind of like that.

so i think it would be kind of cool if stuff like this really existed. if lovecraft really did know about a secret book that gives you immense power. but it would be like those books bound in human skin with a lock that would suck you in if you opened it. oooo

well anyway, i haven't ever read any lovecraft, but i keep thinking i should (i'm not sure if i'd like horror books or not though). i actually learned about the necronomicon from robert anton wilson's books, the illuminatus! trilogy (or was it schrodinger's cat?). one thing that's stuck with me since i read it was this passage:

gestorben ist nicht, was für ewig ruht,
und mit unbekannten aonen mag sogar der tod noch sterben

or as it is in the necronomicon:

That is not dead which can eternal lie.
And with strange aeons even death may die.

Dennis Cooper

I've been reading Dennis Cooper's blog. yeah, i'm a nerd. anyway, he was talking about writing cause some jerk was teaching a writing class and telling kids the "rules" and he had to say that that guy was a jerk. anyway, he said something kind of cool so i thought i'd repeat it here.

Fiction is a drug. The reader is a druggie. The writer is
the chemist designing a drug that will give the reader
an ideal high. Don't design a drug that already exists.
If you do, no one will remember the high you gave them.

hooray. now it's time to get ready for work. and my roommate's girlfriend is leaving. she's weird. she has NEVER once said hi to me and barely even looked at me. even when i've said hi to her!!! what a stupid whore.

Inside Out

"this means i'm like a siren. i lure children into adulthood by mouthing inanities like, 'i love you,' when what i actually mean is, 'you'll die someday.' i'm totally evil. i want them to die. i want..." --closer -Dennis Cooper

Candy

"She felt that because nothing lasts, nothing really mattered. Now she was gone, but to the end of my life, she'd be a part of me. That life, no matter how short and finite, was my own, private infinity. Forever didn't matter." - Candy -LUKE DAVIES