some words

i wanted to read his mind, but all i saw was some dry leaves get larger and larger, then shatter like miniature fireworks beneath his shoes.

i was driving home today, tonight. focusing on only the road and the streetlights, i could pretend i was anywhere. the whole way home it comforted me. highways and streetsigns are universal language.

our faith comes in moments; our vice is habitual

"But souls that of his own good life partake,
He loves as his own self; dear as his eye
They are to Him: He'll never them forsake:
When they shall die, then God himself shall die:
They live, they live in blest eternity."
-Henry More

lightning

i saw some amazing lightning on the way home. a couple streaked clear across the sky. i wish i could take pictures of that... even when people and their tediousness bore me, the weather never ceases to amaze me.

Computer Mod

my computer is useful. two drawers hold what will eventually be a firewall (i haven't installed anything yet, but it will probably be OpenBSD) and the top drawer is holding all my extra computer pieces. of course i took pictures...


bottom drawer
middle drawer
open middle drawer
open bottom drawer
CD open
holes in side

The Butterfly Effect

i watched that again tonight. it was the first time i watched it since i saw it in the theatre. i don't care what anyone says about ashton kutcher's acting, i think that's a really good movie. that's all

Rainbow

today it rained for most of the day. at one point, the sun was out while it was still raining. we found the rainbow. i found out my camera can take pictures of rainbows. with a little adjustment to the brightness and contrast in iphoto, they stand out really well.

Frank

i like how the colors were more blue. i don't know why i took so many pictures of the cat today.

New Comforter!

I'm excited. I finally got a queen size comforter to go on my queen size bed. No more using two small blankets to sleep. It's dark blue on one side and light blue on the other and it's full of down. Frank likes it too. I spread it on the bed and folded up the old comforter. I turned around to put the old one in the bag and by the time I turned back, there was a big lump on the bed. Then he decided he liked clawing it so I had to quickly put a stop to that new enjoyment.

Inside Out

"this means i'm like a siren. i lure children into adulthood by mouthing inanities like, 'i love you,' when what i actually mean is, 'you'll die someday.' i'm totally evil. i want them to die. i want..." --closer -Dennis Cooper

The Electric Chair

i had a weird dream last night. we were driving and we got pulled over and i guess we had something we weren't supposed to, but the crime was payable by death. after that part, my dream played through both outcomes. first, the one we were sentenced to death. i remember saying, "so everything i've done was for nothing?" and he said "pretty much." i remember dying, but it's hard to think about dying even in your dreams because there's always that concious thought that realizes the blackness. the second part, we went to court and the judge sentenced us, but we got to live. we had to pay $500 and then $50 a month for the rest of our lives.

Candy

"She felt that because nothing lasts, nothing really mattered. Now she was gone, but to the end of my life, she'd be a part of me. That life, no matter how short and finite, was my own, private infinity. Forever didn't matter." - Candy -LUKE DAVIES